The time since our return has flown. I can't believe that we have been home over a month, but then again it seems like we have had Karina forever. She has meshed so well into our family. That is not to say that we have not had bumps in the road, but they have been small and we both have learned so much from them.
For example, one day we were both in the kitchen and I had been showing Karina how to cook. I was busy running around and she was asking questions every few minutes "Mommy, how do you do this?", "Mommy, how do you do that?". I answered them and kept on moving around doing my tasks. Then she said, " I am asking because you know, I have never had a mommy before." I quickly stopped what I was doing and said "Yes, I know." Yes, she did have a mother, but she did not have a mommy. A woman to teach her, rebuke her, love her, hold her, inquire about her, etc. That one statement gave me a perspective check. Am I more worried about my agenda, or am I concerned with what God would have me be concerned about...my relationship with my daughter and the rest of my family. This adoption journey does change the child, but it also changes the parent. I am so thankful to be on this journey. Thankful that God is still seeking to sanctify this wretched sinner into His image. Thankful that He is using my 13 year old daughter to do it. What a blessing...it is so much more than I deserve.